who love my downfall
and its just too cold
you show me true friend
baby i was so so
you might as well call me up physically
you know, you got me only into extremes
and i cant believe it
and dont know what to think
sometime around it was so love-sick
now its so sick
cause they aint doubt love
your hint is apart
and the day between us wasnt enough
and i know
i feel good times come
i thought they stay, things are done and become word-made
angels came but they left you day
had you slip away
listen now
burning empty
still this cant be
but even now were not that happy
hotel motel its hot in hell free from myself
but now left with no home
i want you to know
i never would have all
figure out that when you came now
it could have been forever
now it does bring me down
the high now the low up and down we go
put myself too close got burnt night tones
it feels like i'm sinking in the dead sea
don't we care the space inside us so empty
it's like it's over before be gone
this song is over now so was i want
——不知道为什么,我又一个人来了,在这里独自想你
酒吧里面的灯光是很暧昧的,略带醉意的。随手拿起桌上一个淡蓝色的小本,随意的翻到一页,竟看到一行这样淡然的小字:不知道为什么,我又一个人来了,在这里独自想你。心中不禁暗嘲,不管你是谁,其实你是幸福的,因为你在想着一个人。而我在这里,脑子却是空白的,仿佛坐在这里的不是我自己一般。
曾经天真相信过的事情,一件件的被瓦解。感谢所有我曾经信任过的人,用他们的实际行动告诉我,我所给予他们的信任是多么的愚蠢。
我记不清是多久以前,一个朋友对我说,我所相信的童话故事,最后也许只有我自己一个人在演。这件事我一直觉得有两种理解,一是我演给一群疯子看,一是别人在看我这个疯子演。以前我更倾向于前者的理解,因为我一直固执的认为我不会孤单。现在似乎也明白了,也许后者是更现实一点的理解。
还是难以忘记曾经写过的一段话。蚂蚁可以搬不动挡住自己道路的大树,但是蚂蚁有蚂蚁自己的倔强,路可以不往前走,只在这里看着这棵大树如何一天天腐朽下去。
碰巧看到一个朋友的签名档:动什么都别动我脆弱的自尊。
仔细想想也不无道理。有些事情,为了尊严,不低头,不妥协。